I am ashamed to admit it but there are very small things that depresses me that some people would consider inconsequential but it means a lot to me…I really don’t know to call it but if there’s one thing I’m afraid of and find real difficulty in handling it’s..FAILURE. I hate it! And I have trouble dealing with it.
I’ve been feeling depressed all day because of a job application I had earlier in the day. They said they would call or text m within the day and yet they haven’t done so yet and it’s almost 8:00 pm. I hate to admit that I have difficulty accepting that I failed to pass the exams when I really thought it was so easy, I really thought it was rather like child’s play and yet here I am waiting for every damn ringing of my celphone.
If only I know where I failed, what I did wrong or what I didn’t do so that I can do something about it next time but as things goes none of those. They didn’t even bother to tell me I failed….they just didn’t call and I think that was rather rude!
Goodness! Do forgive me I know I am ranting and I hate to do that but I really need somewhere to bent my frustrations and this is the best I can do at the moment. I have no one to call and talk to; I just feel so worthless at this point…I hate this!